First day of school left me totally exhausted. 2.5hours/lecture is something I need to get used to again. Happy texts from Ray kept me going though :) You are a pocketful of sunshine.

The stress-eater in me lashed out and after today, I definitely need to keep it under control again. Mindless eating makes me lethargic and grumpy. What a terrible combination :’(

Trying to choose a caterer for my party, and I get so engrossed at looking at menus that I end up with 10 separate tabs containing completely different catering options. It’s a disease. International or pure Western/Italian? Exactly 1 month before my party and after looking over my syllabus for my modules, I doubt I will have a whole lot of time to settle this in the next few weeks. Thank you to all my friends who have volunteered to help me! Especially Amirul, for helping me with the tentages! I appreciate it a whole lot guys, really.

xx

Going to start giving tuition again. This time, once a week with a Secondary 3 girl for English. The location is pretty near and I’m actually looking forward to doing something productive with my time again. Previously my tuitions didn’t work out because of the distance away from my house and the fact that one of my tutees was a little bit of a pervert. But I’m optimistic about this anyways :)

In other and more exciting news, I just placed a deposit for 2 bunnies! Yes guys, finally getting bunnies of my very own :) They will be arriving next week, and yes, there will of course, be p i c t u r e s ! I’m so excited guys, it’s amazing.

School starts tomorrow and oh yes, I got an A for that last module after all, tho I’m sure most (if not all) received the same. I’ll be really happy if they all did tho because it was a challenging mod and all of us definitely deserve it! School @ 830-230 on Tuesdays, Wednesdays, and Fridays. Not too bad :) And to my fellow UB mates, here’s to another great sem guys!

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Went to the zoo today with Ray and his little sister. Had an amazing time there and we even sat on the horse carriage ride together :) But tsk, my great and extremely tiring day ended with an intense case of stomach discomfort and diarrhea. My stomach has been churning and twisting knots ever since, and I can hardly keep anything down. One thing’s for sure, I’m definitely off dairy - for a long, long time. I seriously can’t test this anymore.

Headed to Sarah’s place around 9 plus though I was still feeling horrible from all the stomach discomfort, but a promise is a promise and I’m glad I made it for cake-cutting :’)

Anyway, I’ve been thinking, boys and girls really shouldn’t be subjected purely based within their little stereotyped boxes. I’ve been having these conversations with various friends and it really seems to me that everyone is different - everyone’s ideals and wants in life are certainly not the same. Suddenly, you treasure the ones that have the same ideals as you. In times of doubt, you cling onto the fact that you are not alone. That gives me comfort, and even more importantly - confidence. Confidence that I am not being naive and unreasonable. Reinforcement. Though I really do appreciate the differences some of my friends and I have. I don’t judge. The world would be a bore if everyone was the same. Utopian-y.

Alas, it’s Sunday tomorrow and I’m grateful for some down time and a meal with my family (broken as they may be - I still enjoy spending time with them, just maybe not together). My tummy is still somersaulting but hopefully it’ll pass by tomorrow. Goodnight all x

It’s 4am. There’s a lot of things that run through my head at this time. To me, it’s clarity.

Life has been blissful lately. I’m not fighting with either of my parents, my friends, or Ray. I’m not working, so there’s no one to be pissed off at, be it bosses or customers. I’m on break, so there’s no pending presentations, making powerpoints, typing reflections, or doing up research papers to fulfill some percentage of my grade that ultimately leads to the calculation of my GPA - the very token that represents my evaluation at my time at UB. Really - there’s nothing to worry about. Suddenly I’m 10 again, and all I need to know is what I’ll be having for dinner and what game/show I get to enjoy each day. Suddenly, it’s all simple. This is a luxury. A luxury that I haven’t been able to enjoy for the longest time. I’m grateful for my circumstances. I love and appreciate each day that I’ve been given. I’m standing here, all thanks to the people that love me. I’m going to relish in this moment, curl my fingers around it, and hold it close to my heart. This very moment where all is right in the world for me, and I am incredibly blessed to be where I am right now. Life isn’t perfect. But I know that there are certain things in my life I can control. I cannot control circumstances. I cannot control the world around me. But I can control my actions, my decision-making process - what I choose to do with my time. It all begins with a list.

These windows. These windows I need.

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Before we left Penang for the airport! Used my iPhone so image is a little fuzzy.

My favorite meal at Penang! Cheap and comforting.
Last week of holidays and all I’ve been doing is sleeping in, eating plenty, exercising, and doing a little planning for my birthday party. Nothing below a B+ this sem so I’m pretty happy with that, but the result for one module has yet to announced so fingers crossed for now.
Not working is giving me the jitters, and I have yet to pick up my last cheque at 12cc. But somehow, not working has actually allowed me to save up a fair sum of money for fear of being totally broke without my own income to fall back on. Irony creeps up on me every single time.
Summer sem starts next week, and this just reminds me that time is passing too fast. One thing for sure, after experiencing Hong Kong and Penang, I definitely need to travel more this year.